Well my dad was going well my best friend Doug is coming over this weekend to hang out which I havent seen since like almost two months. On that I took a nap to because I was still kinda down from last night but I was woken up by my dad and he was yelling and going on about something stupid. I told him to leave my room and let me take my nap. Then I was like pissed and threw my knife at the door and it was stuck lol. BUt then I was like go over to jeremys house and we all went over to see tini do her show... It was a great show good job everyone!

On that note, TSA is releasing their cd this next month and I guess me and jeremy are gonna talk about having a cd party because I got a pre-ordered cd and I guess its something to do to help these guys out.

Fighting to keep this alive
Constantly fighting to keep myself going
Dear friend, I haven't the slightest desire
To help keep you going

Keep to myself all the time
(Kid it's better that way)
Try to avoid all the lines
(But I can't have you stay)
And the things that they say
Fighting to keep this alive
(Kid it's better that way)
Constantly fighting to keep myself going
(But I can't have you stay)

Please don't run from your problems
You can't keep running, there's no place to go

As you escape from your life
This house becomes hollow
And all we can do is just wait
Sit here and wait for this train to arrive
I've got my bags packed and I've said my goodbyes
Constantly giving into these moments
That just bring me down
Just bring me close enough to stay around, to stay around

Keeping to yourself is no way to live your life
You can't fight what's coming
And all that you can do is sit back and realize, we'll be there
Cause you keep waiting for someone to save you
Embrace you and take you away, far away
Take you so far from this place

Running away, so far away
Running away, so far away
I can't stay, I can't stay with you here
I can't stay, I can't stay with you here

As you escape from your life
This house becomes hollow
And all we can do is just wait
Sit here and wait for this train to arrive
I've got my bags packed and I've said my goodbyes
Constantly giving into these moments
That just bring me down
Just bring me close enough to stay around, to stay around

But I won't stay around



This is one of the greatest songs they ever did and I want everyone that reads this to basically go out when it comes time to buy their cd and let me know so I can give them a heads up how many people come and bought their cd in ga!

I basically just sat in my room listening to a song that helps me out whenever I'm in need of needing help. VNV Nation - Endless Skies it's one of the best song I ever came across to help me when I need it... Haha that makes me laugh, music helps me out more then a person can since I just given up on getting a g/f. That might sound like bitching but then again I can say sometimes not even a g/f can help you out in times of need.

VNV Nation - Endless Skies
How many years since you found yourself
Staring at an endless sky?

Unaware of yourself
Who you are and where you're going
Only living
Only breathing
Losing all sense of time

The most fragile of things
Captivates and embraces you
Surrender and be witness
To this rarest of moments

You live within the sense of the order of things
What is truth
What is important
What defines you

No need to fear
No need to worry
About years that passed
About time you lost

Live seconds as a lifetime
Time it does not matter
You live within the sense
Of the stillness of time


As well there was another song that helped me out VNV Nation - Beloved both songs put me in the mind set I need to be there for my little brother. If I could do something for him I will give him my own heart. Yet, there is no way of that unless I was willing to give up my own life for him.


VNV Nation - Beloved
It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
Dress the ground in white
And grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second I spent
Waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance
To tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
That I need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keeps us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed was ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains
No feeling
Eternity awaits

This weekend is probly one of the worst weekends I had in many years. A few things happened after a few people left me alone. One my little brother is having heart problems again. He had triple by-pass surgry at birth and now there is something wrong. My mother had cancer and I havent heard from her in about 7 months. There is something wrong here.

I just dont know what to do anymore... My friends cant help me because most of them have no clue on what is going on. They dont even read my blog so I guess this is just a daily type of journal for myself to have till the time is right.

So I guess im done... I guess the best way to get the worry off my mind is to go to sleep now...

Tatto Tuesday

Ahh yes today I went out to Tattos By Randy which Bizz my tatoo guy redid my tatoo to make it look better which it does 100%. I think he is an awsome guy and he is gonna do my whole arm which gonna cost some cash which it cool with me because its a form of art. Which is cool with me... Well it hurts a bit but its looking good which I might draw up and put online so you all can see an example of it.

A sad day for my family

Well today was sad day for my fellow family members due to the fact they live on Red Lake. Yes I do have cousin's that attend's the school which is very sad to me that this happen... Another kid that was made fun of and just pulled to a side of life just do things to them...

I like to send out my prays since I had 2 friends that attended the school.

Chenelle Rosebear 15 years old - May the elders show you the way.
Thurlene Stillday 15 years old - May the elders show you the way.

I don't know what caused this but I am angry at this boys family because it was said this boy liked hitler and showed a lot of hate toward other students weeks before. Which sometyhing like this was said to be said might happen before it happened. There is so much on this subject please go to www.cnn.com there will be more told in the near future so please pray for the families that lost their beloved children...

Any other rants?

If you like to be a member of this blog spot please let me know at DevinSC2004 and you will be able to post rants like me. So please just contact me... Why would I let other people on my blogger? Well truly this blogger isnt just about me its about the world. I just got to sign up for another one to get the named change. Still dont know what to change it to.

For some odd reason when I been listening to the CD Breaking Benjamin I turned it to the last song. Why I dont know, I something in my head went last song is for me... Now thats really odd for myself as well... It's called rain. Well I listened to it and I know why I did it... This songs stands for me not to move... Just basically saying where ever I go there were always be Rain. I just got to stand up for what I believe in and keep going its just the way to servive in todays life. So here are the lyrics to the song. Hope you all like the song as well.


"Rain"

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

I really like this song and I will always keep this song somewhere near me... Either a in a cd or b a new mp3 player. There will always be a place for me to listen to this song.

Ahh yes this sunday was a very awsome day. One of the biggest games I ever played in any form of Lazer Tag ever... We played 4 games and I shall tell you what each game was like sanerio like lol.

Game 1: Ahh yes, Team 1 vs. Team 2. Its basically a all out battle like in ww2 anything goes to win the war. So My team lost this for no teamwork whats so ever... Just something really odd to me... Im so good at this but no one wanted to work with me so they all just went out to die.

Game 2: Basically my team was the bad guys a cartel (not spelled right) and we are having a normal day life as a CARTEL... So we are mariens come in which we do know about and they cut both sides of our basses off and we are trying to fight back to gain control of our home turf. We lost this one as well..

Game 3: The very simple game of capture the flag... One of our members went awall on us.. killed 4 of his own teammates. So yea..

Game 4: A very hard game this one was... We are the bad guys again and we must not allow any of the mariens get their own from is... So basicly this game we won due to my perfect snipers abilities.

Besides that I just been having fun. This next weekend we might have another big thing but its gonna be on saturday night nothing is known yet so I guess I will post about it as soon as I hear about it. Thats all for now.

Well everyone this summer might be official last year in the state of Georgia. Why you may ask? Well it's just time for things to move on. Life always goes on and so do I with time. Truly I don't really like it down here because it's all the way from my family. Where if I am to move I can see my litte brother Red Cloud and my Father. Even my older brothers and sister. So its just something I been thinking about doing for awhile but I dont know yet.

Besides that Im sorry I havent posted on my blogger in sometime. I been just really just greafing over life for some reason. Who knows I dont know god does I guess. So yea I am going to see my father and little brother this summer and I also planning on getting a puppy YESH.. I new dog for me.. Will be the 4th in my life. I had a wolf/husk mix which my sister has and the other 2 died by getting hit by a car. So yea...

Well I like to say what is up to everyone. I know most of you are like NO dont move. Im sorry but if you knew how it fills to be away from your family then you know where I am coming from and all. Ohh yea Zack man come to young life and hang out man.. I miss everyone from art class it was fun lol..

Hey Ms. F I been drawing latly but for some reason I been taking pictures of things. I guess another form of art. I like it, I might do this for a living who knows but just wanted to say hello!

Well thats all for now Ill post later today and it will be more on whats going on with me and why i might move.

Well, it's been awhile since I wrote in my blog. Why? Because I just have been really busy with things. For example: One of my websites www.ani-united.net was hacked and I have to work to get it back up. Anotehr example: Just been working a lot I guess.

Well besides that, I like to say whats up to those at Sandy Creek High School. I miss you guys very much and I hope yall's school year is going well. Ahh yes Ms. Fletcher I miss your ever famous art class. I havent been drawing latly I will get back at it. Zach - You said HEY! Well Zach I like to say WHAAZZ UPPP!!! lol...

Well this wensday I attended a so called church... Ohh yea not a church a CULT!!! I mean they ever said if you have long hair your going to hell. If you listen to rock your going to hell.. They said if you dress like a punk your going to hell.. Then I stood up.. Ohhh yea I did.. I said your going to hell sir. He said why am I going to hell.. Because your nothing but lies! He said how am I lies? You see yourself saying beating children is the right way to do it! WRONG SIR! God never beat us to believe in him. So what gives us the right to do the same to our children. Most kids cry even when you yell at them.. So sir you are going to hell for ever lie you tell.. I dont even think god is in the place like this. Then some women stood up and said "Learn you place boy and seat down and be the good mexican you are." Ohh no you just didnt call me a mexican.. So then this cult got something they never wanted they had me when I was mad! I told the women... "Learn your place and shut you mouth before I slap it to its place.. Second of all Im not mexican.. Im apart of the A-nish’-in-a so before you say im a mexican go to the tralior park and look for yours.. So then She started crying and ran out. Someone said her parents died and bla bla bla.. I said good now she has someone to go to when I personally send to hell.. That came out of no where not like a threat but something took over me and said that.. So then I said im out and dont look at me either when you leave this building.

I dont know for some reason but something took over me and said somethings I would never say. But yea I mean I would never say anything like that its not me to be so threating what so ever.. Im the clam cool and collective person. Maybe there is a side of me that just came out I never seen either.

Well besides that I just wanted to tell you all what happened this wensday. Tommorow I will be posting my ever famous RANTS of life. Thats all for now peace!