I basically just sat in my room listening to a song that helps me out whenever I'm in need of needing help. VNV Nation - Endless Skies it's one of the best song I ever came across to help me when I need it... Haha that makes me laugh, music helps me out more then a person can since I just given up on getting a g/f. That might sound like bitching but then again I can say sometimes not even a g/f can help you out in times of need.

VNV Nation - Endless Skies
How many years since you found yourself
Staring at an endless sky?

Unaware of yourself
Who you are and where you're going
Only living
Only breathing
Losing all sense of time

The most fragile of things
Captivates and embraces you
Surrender and be witness
To this rarest of moments

You live within the sense of the order of things
What is truth
What is important
What defines you

No need to fear
No need to worry
About years that passed
About time you lost

Live seconds as a lifetime
Time it does not matter
You live within the sense
Of the stillness of time


As well there was another song that helped me out VNV Nation - Beloved both songs put me in the mind set I need to be there for my little brother. If I could do something for him I will give him my own heart. Yet, there is no way of that unless I was willing to give up my own life for him.


VNV Nation - Beloved
It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
Dress the ground in white
And grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second I spent
Waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance
To tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
That I need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keeps us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed was ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains
No feeling
Eternity awaits